lenagurly

09:53 pm: Heyall!
Just wanted to say hi... and brag a little bit lol


this quarter should be pretty freaking amazing

I have my
EOT Course
music
art
in-outs of assesments
practicum


ANd THATS IT! YES!!!! so many easy classes... its fantastic I almost died last quarter/// this is gunna be awsome...

o yea and somehow I managed to pass all my classes last quarter and got a 3.89... dunno how the hell that happened! YEAY! Im happieieieeiei!



So with that off my chest... I will have a lot more time this quarter so just give me a call if yuo wana hang out!

12:09 pm: OMG!
My Sis called! SHE IS STILL ALIVE!...

By the way she has been in boot camp for 4 weeks now! HALF WAY DONE!Im so proud of her! She has even been gassed! I cant believe it... Im just so happy that she is safe! YAY

03:34 pm: O wait...
Like a life force draining me
I hear your heart beating
ever slowly depleating

Please dont go
I want to stop the hurt
Im tired of answering questions

This really has to end
My heart has been blended
Masacured to the end

Please dont
I really cant
Please

THe time is coming
There is no rhyme
this thing inside

Please
It hurts
Please

I really cant feel
The pain is gone
All that is left

Please dont stay
Go away
End this now

Everytime I look at you
Im done
I start breaking down

Please go
Leave me with my sanity
O wait

Im gone....

10:28 pm: Sooo
I was just reading a few of the old journal entries from here. I can now officially relate to what TJ once told me about annoying crazy shorthand writing. I dont remember half the stuff anymore and I am sure its because I made it all up.

So in my opinion the most interesting one was me going on about talking to cops and the principle and riding around in the back of a truck... I think I had a little bit of a bad child streak. I miss all those beach parties that we talked about though... The end of Soph year was amazing. I miss everyone so much... I really shouldnt have read those entries lol.

Any ways. Its just crazy to think about how much I have matured and things have changed since then. So if you would like to have some good old fashioned Alina bonding please write, because I dare say Im about to go crazy with all theese "new" and dramatic friends. Im dying for some good old chill.

06:05 pm: Hate it
SO everyone know that feeling how you just need someone to be there... It sucks when you try to do somthing about it and people arent there anymore... Thanks a lot to all my "Best-friends" at least I know one of them would do something if they were anywhere near me. To one in particular I just wana shout out a big ol' FUCK YOU! Thanks for returning any of the phone calls that I placed.... o yea and thanks for being there for me when I stuck to your side like glue when you were going through a rough patch.

12:00 am: Bye Bye
So my sister is off to boot camp... dropped her off yesterday. So I wont be seeing her FOREVER!!! Im sad...


Sorry random moment... I just got a text saying... "I would love see you babe...m next text says "I Want you to be with me...."

My heart is officially pounding

Mmk anywho back to my story. Sister is gone and my dad was all like, "Im down to one daughter now, we are a little family of three"

I couldnt believe that he said that, I know he was just trying to make light of the situation but it makes me so sad... Besides the fact that my sister beat me out of the house, I really just cant believe it... She is gone for 4 years... I dont really talk to her but recently in like the past month we have been hanging out and bonding a lot! She has grown up and matured sooo much and I love her a lot. Now Im not going to get my 9 AM wake up call of her working out and jumping up and down right above my bed! Buster is even sad....

Well everyone wish her luck in your hearts.

05:36 pm: YAY!
School starts tonight... and Im kinda excited. I have an IT class tonight... For two hours... I cant even begin to imagine what the class is about.... :-/..... But at least I have one more class than last quarter,... well technically 2 more lol.. Whootah!


I also want to note that I met a really great guy... and we seem to be on the same page... I think its a good begining in sight!

09:54 pm: Im Saved
Mmmm... I love Christmas with the family.... Leave it to my uncle, the hard ass who just retired from the army to sit down and have a talk about love, work and just everyday crap.... I feel so much better about myself, and Im feeling my New Years Resolution has to do with drinking more wine, (less beer and hard A) and just getting on with my life... I have been stuck in a rut for too long...
Step 1: Get the room ready
Step 2: Get stuff done for classes
Step 3: Build a resume
Step 4: Get a Job
Step 5: Enjoy going back to having a crazy ass life because thats the way I love it... :)
Step 6: Stay the same size as I am now! (good luck)

btw step one and two are almost all done and step 3 is being worked on tomarrow! YAY!

10:15 pm: Depressing
I might not be able to go down to Oregon for Christmas because of the new snow storm coming through.... I guess Portland is even worse that here... I am going to be thorourly devastated if thats true... It was my only shot at having a happy Christmas I love seeing all my family and my Nana cheers me up without fail...

08:53 pm: O boy!
So I love the snow. I love to drive in it, and scare Claire! It was fun. We drove around and went to Lombardie's which was closed.... SAD! Im craving those little shrimp butter garlic things soooo bad.

I feel so entirely strange right now, I was just on myspace and they have that new button where the engine thing matches you with people you might know... (another idea stolen from facebook). and I see this guy on there, turns out its the same guy I had a crush on throughout all of HS, but I never talked to him... not even once! I turned all giddy inside. I couldnt believe it, you would think feelings like that would die wouldnt you? Maybe its because I never gathered up the courage to talk to him... Its rediculous!

Other than that, anyone super good with resumaes and the likes, I really need to start applying for jobs but I hate it, and I am completly unmotivated. Its really very very strange and not like me at all. I just cannot seem to make myself budge and look for any work. Its really pissing me off deep down.

O well I hope that everyone is having a nice holiday and I think we should get all of the old drama crew together again for a little get-to-gether seemings how the holiday concert had to be cancelled due to snow...

04:59 pm: Bla
SOoo Im listening to COld Play, and thinking about Heather. I have just had like hour long flashbacks of when we used to all hang out and play the piano and sing... along with those amazing talks in the mini rooms. I miss it sooo much. I really wish I could rewind time and go back to HS.

Bwt I went to a party last night. THe hosts were the people I used to baby sit for. So these boys used to come up to maybe my my mid stomache area right... Well They are TOWERING over me! The both go to EHS... which they enjoy and dont mind the trunch?! odd. Crazy how much life changes...


On to my other point, dont even watch Sweet home ALamba and then listen to music like Cold play and six pence... I am so in need of a pick me up... Its snowing and Im not happy! Its WEIRD!

04:42 pm: Hello
Quick question... so I know this guy, we kinda dated my senior year, he is super duper cool right. I dont get any wierd vibes no nada... So we hang out again last night. Since weve talked last he has become a pilot almost married the whole works right.... anywho. he still seems like this really great guy, we talked at the bar for 4 hours and then went out and walked on the beach. Not a single awkward moment the WHOLE time. The only thing is, he is offering to get me a ticket to anywhere I want to go. like hawaii or LA disney land you know. Im sooo tempted to go, I really really want to go. But is that like a good thing to do? I dont really know him all that well. Im scared. but it would be super duper fun...

12:30 pm: :)
Two Finals down one more day of school one more paper and a portfolio AND IM DONE! First quarter of Western stuff DOWN! :) :) :)

o and by the way im happy... can you tell.

09:32 pm: Hi yaz
SO I just read Heather's amazing post. I would like to agree with a rather large portion of it. So I decided to write a little update of my life post spain! Its been almost a year since I left, and I cant believe how much life has changed since then Its finals week which really sucks major buttocks. Its driving me off the wall. This quarter its death by papers. I think that I have written at least 10 papers in the last 3 weeks, and I still have 3 more to go. I just finished my only test final and im pretty sure that I kicked butt! HURRAY! I am super excited to be done with that class. Almost done with one quarter and only like 9 more on my way to being a teacher! YAY! It seems so crazy just 5 months ago I wasnt sure what I wanted to do and facing the future of graduating. But now here I am... back with more school! So in almost 2 and half years from now I will graduate with My residency and bachelors in special eduaction... which basicly boils down to I can teach elementary ed! Well I hope that everyone else is well. We should get together somtime in the upcoming vaction... Everyone take care.

06:27 pm: Crazy/not so crazy summer
So I recently found out that Im excepted to Western! Hurray! I got into the satelite program which is amazing. Can I say half off what everyone else at Western is paying plus I can live at home. So its all fairly cheap. Just need to get the car paid off and Ill be sitting pretty! Anywho. Im sick and very board, I didnt go to work cuz I have nothing to do there and I didnt want to infect persons.

I wish Devin would have stuffed me in his suitcase when he left for london/barcelona! Can you say two more cities I want to visit but I wasnt able to previously... Both are super amazing... O well. Just have to wait for the Euro to fall and the dollar to rise. *please*...

Hope everyone is having a good summer :)

10:23 pm: Ive decided
I miss Spain so much. I had so much fun there and made so many diffrent friends. I just got off the phone with angelica. We were half way attached at the hip while we were there. We were just talking about the Rover and the other fun things that we did. I miss them, the people the clubs, the walking the AMAZING food. gosh. I would give anything to go back right now. with friends of course.... I hope I get to go back some day.


Lena

10:16 pm: Its been a month
Im offically home and at peace. My neck hurts and my room is a mess. Starting to pay back some dept so life is good!

Good news Im super excited I have tons of family coming up this weekend for my parents surprise wedding anniversary. Gosh Ive been planning this for a year and its happeneing TOMARROW! I never thought that I would see this day... gosh it has got to be amazing otherwise im going to scream!

I miss all my friends. I got lonely today. I miss being in constant contact with some loving females and being able to talk about EVERYTHING! It was like a waaaay more mature high school. Lovely. I miss my roomate horribly. But I miss all my HS friends too. Its so hard trying to collaborate schedules. It was awsome haning out with CHris and Shavonne a couple weeks ago. The official blowing of the tire on the freeways was AMAZING! LEts do it again... hahah jk. Anyways seriously if anyone is around and wants to hang out nighttimish. please let me know. Dana is great and amazing. but somtimes I need other people too.

Hope that everyone else's life is going well. lovyaz!

04:40 pm: Gosh
SOooooooooo dont miss the US.... bla...Spain I miss you....

04:37 pm: Hola
Que Tal mis amigos

So just thought that I would let you all know that I come home this sunday... and Im very excited!.... My plane flys in at like 10ish i do believe...


I also just got home from Roma... TEHEHEHE amazing...ç

much love to all from me

lena

01:47 pm: hey there
if you all would like to know about my goings on I have a blogspotter andits like alina-spain. and that should do it ya!